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| Category: The Sacred In Everyday Life |
Date published: March 9, 2005 |
"Public Relations" Director & Staff writer of Holistic Junction; aka LadyCamelot, shared a few words with me on her overall health, wellbeing and how she lives day by day with transverse myelitis, fibromyalgia and other health conditions...here is her letter:.....
Hi Michael - I'm writing you back with a long, off-topic story, so try not to be really bored...lol...
I am feeling just fine today. The strange thing about my physical problem is that it likes to sneak up and attack me when I'm unaware. Usually these spells don't last more than a day or two. If I'm lucky, they don't hit me for a few months. Rarely will I have a relapse that lasts more than a week or two. I wish I didn't have these issues, but I guess for whatever reason I do have them, it makes me stronger and more appreciative of the health that I do have - when I have it. The only other options Neurologists give me is a wad of drugs to take, and I'd rather endure a few relapses and remain mentally alert than drugged and a walking zombie.
Aside from that, most of the drugs that I was given in the past are a main cause to my heart dysfunction now, so I'll stay as far away from them as possible.
It's funny - when it's warm and I have the summer breeze, the pool to swim in, I do incredibly well. The interaction of the water, the motion and the warm sun does miracles for me. Just that right now we're having such a long spell of winter that doesn't seem to want to give up. lol...
Know that I am stronger and more resilient because I have the condition I have. Whether lupus or MS - I'm really uncertain as to the extent of my problems, but I live each day - one day at a time - and I have no regrets. If I had to live it over, I wouldn't change a thing. The 'what ifs' and the 'whys' - they're all just mental blocks that we create for ourselves - so instead, I focus on the tomorrows and the todays. Each one is special and each one I take with loving gratitude.
At this point in my life, I feel so blessed to have all the wonderful people around me. You being one of them. Whenever I have the constant pain in my back and neck, I realize that at least I am able to feel it. These are spasms that I have everyday. It's the days when I wake up and there is no feeling that I worry. And sometimes, that happens to me. And I've come to accept it. I've gotten so used to living with pain that I virtually ignore it. I figure if I don't acknowledge it, (mind over matter), it is lessened - and usually that mindset works for me. I have ups and downs, as you know, but overall, I overcome the negative with the positive and live each day to the best of my ability.
I was talking w/my mom the other day and we were talking about the time I went to my first kindergarten class in Germany. I was a kindergarten dropout. lol I quit the first day because '...all the teacher wanted us to do was play with dolls and tea-sets...' I never went back to kindergarten because I went there to 'learn,' not to play.
Then, as an elementary student in military school overseas, I was constantly riddled with asthma and pneumonia side-effects. I missed months at a time from school. When I returned to school, I'd have pages and pages of makeup work. I would take the work home and complete the whole work book; and make straight A's. Several times, teachers tried to skip me to higher grades but the 'military school wouldn't allow grade skipping...' They felt it would be better for me to 'stick with my age group...' lol...
When I went to high school, there were a few teachers who admired my abilities, but there were some who literally hated me. One teacher, in particular, criticized me for 'plagiarizing' because 'there was NO WAY that you could have written that report on teenage drug use and pregnancy...' Though she still gave my 'plagiarized' report a 'B' she refused to give me an 'A' because I wrote better than her. lol... I knew it then and today I wonder whatever happened to Ms. Gold, she must've been pretty miserable. lol...
When I look back at my childhood, my teenage years, and now, I've never done anything half-way, and I believe that because of my strong will to prevail, I've created my own adaptable living environment.
You can always count on me Michael - I've found my calling and it's HJ. I've been rewarded time and time again with the positive feedback, my sense of purpose and the desire to succeed through personal perserverance. It's all relavent - as you once said. We're both survivors and today I am feeling good and I am resolved and determined to continue my soul purpose in life. So, how am I feeling today - absolutely wonderful! Will talk w/you later.
Love and blessings,
LC
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