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Date published: March 16, 2003
Pregnant under Pressure
by Alicia Boylan
As the dream starts, I`m walking into my high school to take a miderm. However, I`m in the special "pregnant" room where the girls who might go into labor are taking their tests. AS I`m taking the test, one or two girls go into labor. When I`m nearly done with the test, I try to tell the proctor, who in real life is my math teacher, that I cannot finish the test. He doesn`t let me leave until I finish it, something with which I comply.
I have a baby, and then it is immediatly taken away from me. I don`t even know if its a boy or a girl. After I have the baby, I remember that I am a virgin. This corresponds with my attitude before, where I think of a boy who I only kissed and tell myself I`m only getting what I deserve. As I`m thinking about this, I`m suddenly nine months pregnant again.
I`m back in the pregnant testing room, and this time I don`t even try to finish the test; I somehow know I`m going to go into labor. Sure enough, I`m in labor again. I call over my psychology teacher (who is a nun and was also my creative writing and religion teacher), and she lets me go. This time, it was a false alarm and I`m sent home. I`m also remarkably small for my nine moth`s status.
I`m still puzzled about how I became pregnant, so I go to lecture at the mall where an obstetrician is givin a lecture. After she finishes, I tell her my concerns about the size of my baby and how I was impregnated. She smiles and tells me stress sometimes induces pregnancy. I woke up, scared.
Two weeks later, I had another dream where I was pregnant at home. I hadn`t told my parents yet, and I went into labor. I walked downstairs, told my mom I was pregnant and in labor. We got in the car and drove to the hospital, where I had the baby.
This time I was burdened with the responsibility of having a child, although I never knew the sex. My parents, whose reaction I was scared of since they strictly look down upon premarital sex, told me it was okay because my boyfriend and I loved each other. I was confused because I thought I was pregnant from a one night stand with the sam guy as the last dream (who I still had only kissed). The guilt kept piling on me and I was preparing to tell my parents the truth when I woke up. It took me a couple of minutes to breathe a sign of relief that the dream wasn`t true.
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